"Where do introverts belong in God's churches?" is a question that has come to mind lately. I'll admit, I'm somewhat bewildered that this question hasn't danced in my mind earlier. Catch as catch can though. Anyway, I had an epiphany regarding this topic: being a part of a church is difficult for me, because I am an introverted person. I've finally come to discover that the pinnacle of church is community, instead of lessons being taught inside of the building. Side Note: I won't hold any resentment against you if you think that I'm an imbecile for just realizing that. I struggle with talking to others, with shaking their hands, with hearing people pray, with paying attention to what's being spoken about from the stage. I don't like listening to myself a lot of times, which also makes listening to others difficult for me. I like the music though; I like studying the lyrics, and singing parts of the songs. Being with other people is quite tiring to me, all around. I learn more when I study Biblical passages on my own, than I would with a group of other people. When I study with others I obtain headaches for some reason (and I get headaches on a daily schedule, so this doesn't really help me out). When I am by myself, I often times feel more tenacious, and more rejuvenated. I can be an eager young gentleman sometimes. But as soon as I have to encounter people, I feel weak and defeated. God, where do I belong in the church?
Song of the Day: Brand New - Jesus Christ
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